I think that it's time for you to know this and, most
important, to me to say. I loved you once and I still love you, I still think
about you, I still miss you, I still hope to wake up and realize that it was
all a nightmare, I still want you, I still wish you with me, but I can't do
this anymore because, after everything, I'm still in pain. You broke my heart
so bad that I don't know how to fix it and sometimes I feel that you are the
only one who could do this, but deep inside I know that this isn't happening.
So, I thought about it, I questioned myself, I tried
to get as many answers as I could have and I didn't find anything. You said to
me, let's be friends and I agreed because you were and will always be an
important person to me. So I tried, I tried really hard to see you as a friend,
to accept you in my life as a friend and I swear that I was ready to do
anything to have you in my life like this, if at the end I could see you being
happy, but you failed one more time or, I putted so many hope on this, that my
heart broke again when I realized that I was the only one trying.
Now it's time to let you go, because I need to love
myself again because I don't think that I know who I am anymore. So I'm sorry
if I stop texting you or if you don't see my notifications on your social media
for a while. I might take a time to heal but that doesn't mean that one day you
will not see me again or that I might stop cheering for you, it will just mean
that I learned to have a life without you in it, that I found someone to love me
like I deserve and that I'm free to live a life without wondering what could I
have done so I couldn't lose you back then.
I'll never delete you from my life or my social media
accounts, I’ll always be hoping that you are happy and that all your dreams
came true! I just need to take a time to me, so I can rediscover myself and be
ready to see you as a chapter of my life that ended. And if someday you realize
that I can help you with something, you know how to find me!